My Very 1st Blog Ever

Please be patient with me, this is the first blog I have ever created. I wanted to start this blog as a way to find other people who are sharing this crazy experience. I am a 24 year old stay at home mom from Arizona. I have a 2.5 year old named Kaelam, a 10 month old named Tyner and I am pregnant with my third, who will be named Ryker... ALL boys. I am due on Tyner's 1st birthday in June of 2010. I am TERRIFIED at the thought of having 3 kids under 3. I also don't know anyone who is in this same situation but I'm sure there are a lot of people out there that are. My husband works long hours and my family lives hours away and obviously can't help me. I do have lots of friends that will help when they are able, but all have their own families and young kids. To make matter worse, I have been on modified bedrest since month 4 of my pregnancy. Modified bedrest is basically as much bedrest as possible with a toddler and an infant. This was not a planned pregnancy either. We were done after having Tyner but 2 months later, we found out I was pregnant. The first thing that went through my mind was, " Holy crap! What the hell am I going to do now?" I still don't know what I'm going to do. I'm worried I won't be able to handle all of it. How can I deal with a newborn when I have a temper tantrum thowing 2 year old and a crying toddler? What am I supposed to do when I only have 2 hands, but need 10? How are we going to afford diapers for 3 kids and formula for 2 kids? What happens when I take them all out and only 1 can walk? Will I be able to give them all the time and attention they each need? Will I be able to do this? These are questions that have run through my head since the 1st day I found out I was pregnant. I plan to be able to answer the questions and more as the time passes. Not only for myself, but for anyone out there who is in the same boat. I hope that this blog will be able to help someone else.